BIANCO E NERO
di Francesca Ciani
G. Regnani, #Parktraits stories_12 2023
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WHITE AND BLACK
by Francesca Ciani
G. Regnani, #Parktraits stories_12 2023
SUNDAY.
Again today,
I woke up before the alarm went off, as has been happening for several months now, but at least I slept well.
Outside, it’s quite humid and the sun is hidden: I usually prefer days with a blue sky, but since I don’t have to go out, let it rain.
Come on, it’s good to start early because I like doing things precisely, so I need more time.
And leave my leg alone; you know that tremor that appears when I concentrate bothers me.
Now, sit down here next to me and be quiet.
Let’s see which color to choose: it’s almost Christmas, red is overused, and I’ve worn it all week.
White?
The color of purity… what do you think?
I feel innocent, but you… I’d say not so much.
Anyway, let’s begin. Luckily, they invented semi-permanent!
Why?
You ask me that too?
Because when you can’t keep your hands still, you make me mess up.
So, I remove the smudge of the uncured color without ruining the previous work to start over.
No need to get upset, I warned you: when I feel like doing something,
I do it. Today, I feel like painting my nails.
I told you not to speak.
Sigh all you want; you won’t change my mind. Besides,
I have plenty of time lately (when it rains, it pours, that’s why I’m home today).
A moment of patience, the base is done, but I want to create a tiny design: a decoration with black, as if you had done it… After all, you like black, right?
Now, I’ll take a thin brush. Stop distracting me, see?
You made me mess up again. As I erase the black lines, I think I’d like to erase your overwhelming presence too, but we both know that’s not possible. And while you watch me closely,
I ask you to steady my hand, just for a moment, for a few strokes, please.
That annoying leg tremor again, but I’m done now.
Do you like the result? Your dark essence stains my pure soul, yet don’t you think the result is perfect?
Without you, I’d surely feel better, but without you, I wouldn’t have done all this.
I’m genuinely satisfied, even though it took a lot out of me.
Stop acting like a spoiled child; I’m almost done, just need to tidy up, and then you can return to your usual routine.
Didn’t you enjoy doing something together for once?
Didn’t it make you feel better spending a few hours more carefree?
You’re such an old grumbler; you’ll end up ruining every pleasure for yourself.
Try to enjoy the present moment, as I’m trying to learn to do. It’s not easy at all, quite the opposite, but I’m trying, one step at a time.
One day at a time.
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